Who n When

Libby Zagorski

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her..."


Sometimes you wish you can turn back times...
but just as you thought everything is over...you just know...its never too late but....


sometimes when you missed the boat...it is too late...:)

to suffer in silence....

faith woke up one night with sweats running down her cheek bones...

her heart was beating so fast that she felt it had a life on its own....

the best part...she couldn't recall why was her heart beating so fast and why the hell was she sweating like a pig...
she looks at the air-conditioner...it was blast at 16degrees....so that couldn't be the problem...

slowly she recalls...
her dreams...she could hardly remember...
her vision was very vague...

this is not the 1st time its happening...
its slowly taking a toll on her...

she hardly gets enough sleeps these days...
hence the sleepy-ness during the day but somehow she cant fall in a deep sleep like she used too..

slowly and gently...she falls back to sleep...
without her realising...her nightmare begins all over again.....




to be continue...

guess wht..

ive gain weight....!@#@!@#$%$#%#$%@%#!@#3!!!!!!


like wht the hell right...

all the stupid up and down emotions...
is making me eat more n MORE!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...who the hell wants a FREAKING FARKING FAT GF???

god!!!!

i better start doing something...diet...is so on right now...

crap...i never felt so shit in my life....sigghhh!!!!!!!

Hocus Pocus

its been awhile since i last blog...

yes...i have seem to lost my blogging mojo...
maybe to the fact that my life is not as simple as it used to be..:)

many things has happened for the last few months...

too many till Ive lost myself...

i really lost it all...

those who are close to me...knew this very well...
but as harsh as it seems to be...i rather like keeping things to myself...:)

for those who knew me long enough...
would know how to keep their distance and i really appreciate that a lot...:)

right now...im happy...:)

tht things are going as planned..:)

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on the other hand...

i had a dream...

i dreamt i was trap in a cage...

being trap in it...i was trying to get out...
when i finally figure out...i realise i have to sacrifice something...

my hand or my leg...:(

i thought hard....
and i couldn't make up my mind...

so all i did was just sit and cried my lungs out...
than came this black figure...it pulled me out...leaving me no choice but to loose my arm...

i couldn't cope without my arm....i struggled...

1st few days was horrible...
i cried each time i wanted to use my arm...
knowing for the fact it will never be there anymore like how it used to be....
i had to adapt n accept that fact...

and the fact it is gone forever...no matter how or what i do...




at the end i woke up with heavy sweats...

i wonder whts the dream all about...

maybe its telling that to get something...
you need to sacrifice...n its with nobody's help but your own effort n strength...

n i think its pretty true...

somehow i think...we may want or love things/ppl in life...
but we cant have it all...we always have to sacrifice as life is not fair and will never be fair..;)

and its YOU...not ppl around u...its always best to suffer in silence...:)

why make 10 ppl cry with you when you can cry alone...:)


think about it..:)
just my 2 cents of thought..:)

till i write again...
xoxoxoxoxo

Another round of booze??

i woke up this morning with a huge pang of pain banging in my head...:(

i woke up entirely confuse...

sigh...

my womanly instincts are telling me something...

but i think il choose to ignore...

but how long can i keep myself from running away??

sooner nor later...i would have to face it...

whether mua like it or not...

oh boy...this sure is shitz...

hummphh...so much for trust n loyalty ....

bummers...ohhh shoot me in my head...

geez..this blog is nothing but my ranting space...

for now...im gona drown myself with a good cup of hot milo...

on another note....the weather is being a pain in the ARSE!!!

fyi...it has nothing to do with YOU!!! yes YOU!!!



good day!!! muaks!!

I Farking Hate YOU!!!!

im piss off...

small simple favour...i cant ask you...

you used to understand me...now you don...

you think tht giving material stuff can show how much you love me???
you think by taking me out for expensive dinners can please me??
you think money can please me??

yes...these stuff can definately add big bonus to the relationship...
but at the end...i really hope tht u take lil things to consideration...

have you ever put any effort to get to know ppl close to me??
have you ever once just tried to be helpfull??

all you can think of is yourself...yes i have to admit...you put me ur number 1...
but have you put my feelings into consideration???

when i ask you for a favour...you grunt, rant n sigh...

it looks like im begging for help...

why can others be so caring n also helpful when u cant bloody be 1

its not the 1st time...

i had enough...

i don need ur help...ur too great to lend a helping hand right...

so STAY AWAY!!!!!

it bloody fucking irrating..

I Loss the Game

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone


Love you Always...............................................